I think Youtube is a great way to start. Formal chemistry education often starts with theory, MASSIVE amounts of theory with a flood of classifications, stoichiometry, nomenclature and periodic tables up to your nostrils, which will scare off anyone except the really nerdy and/or dedicated people.
But if you're approaching chemistry as a hobbyist or as means to an end to produce drugs, a good way to keep the spirits up is doing the practical exercises first. Then, when you fail, you will WANT to learn the theory to understand why you failed and be able to succeed.
So watch a lot of chemtubers, like NileRed, Thyzoi, Chemplayer (you won't find him on Youtube though, he's on BitChute) and NurdRage, get some of the basic equipment they use and copy some of their experiments. Try to make your own reagents to start with, like absolute ethanol, nitric acid and Glacial Acetic Acid.
Eventually, you'll get the urge to actually understand and be able to predict what you're doing, and then you'll end up on chem forums like ScienceMadness or The Vespiary (or here) with your questions about what an aldehyde actually is, why pyridine is an excellent catalyst or how you can exchange this reagent or that for something more accessible.
You will also need to find ways to procure reagents and learn to use google for this, which can actually be fun if you've got the right mindset. The kind of mindset you actually NEED to be able to pull this off.